I just feel the need to write this down… I can’t stand it anymore. I’m literally 3 days away from finding out if I got a study place or not at my dream University. The Technical University of Graz. I can’t think, I can’t eat, I can’t study, I can’t stand the wait. These last 3 months have been the longest months in my entire life.
To study abroad has been my absolute dream ever since I was in high school, and here I am… Just 3 days away and my dream could actually become a reality. You literally cannot imagine the amount of happiness I would feel if it turns out that I got a study place there. Oh dear God…
My family is the most supportive family ever. They are just the most amazing people in the whole world, and I love them all so much. I feel like I owe this to myself and to them. I need to prove that I am capable of building and managing my own life, to do my own thing, and to be able to help them should they need it. Ever since I applied for this program, I dreamed about walking downtown Graz, shopping at the local markets, meeting new and interesting people, and most importantly, finding out who I really am and what I want to do with my life.
Of course I applied to other universities throughout Europe, but something inside me is telling me that Graz is the place I want to go. It’s funny, because I’ve never been there, but I am pretty sure that I’ll feel right at home there.
I will keep you posted, I promise. On the 1st of February we’ll pop the champagne, I can feel it, but there’s always that voice in my mind telling me “Don’t celebrate yet, Alex. There’s a 50% chance of you not getting it! Go study for now, you got finals to worry about!”. My brain is so weird sometimes… 😀
Sorry if this post is all over the place, but that’s the way I feel at the moment: all over the place. Every single time my phone vibrates, I just feel an adrenaline rush, and I feel so disappointed when it’s just a random email.